Another one to add to the list though is the anxiety I feel before competing in a big race. I was quite nervous before my first marathon in New York in Nov 2008, because I'd been filmed and appeared on TV preparing for it, and would have felt a bit of a fraud if I hadn't completed it. I felt pressure to do the London marathon in 2011, because I'd raised a lot of money for charity from friends, family and colleagues, and would have felt I'd have let them down if I hadn't finished it. For any marathon, there is pressure anyway that you've put 3 months and countless hours of effort into gearing up for just one day. Always though, as soon as I've started the race, I'm OK.
In 3 day's time I'll be competing in the USA paratriathlon nationals in Austin, Texas and I'm flying out there tomorrow with a team from my Achilles running group. I'm getting just a touch nervous again, and I think this time its because it involves the longest swim I've ever done - 750 metres - and only my second proper open water swim in a wetsuit.
But I think it should be OK. I don't any excuses about being let down by crappy equipment any more! Thanks to A Step Ahead prosthetics, I'll be going to Austin with a grand total of four legs - a running leg, a biking leg, my regular walking leg, along with my (non-mechanical) right leg. Most amputees across the world don't have access to this standard of care, so I feel truly lucky to be in this position.
Molly does a quick luggage inspection to make sure I haven't forgotten anything. |